I'm so sorry / Cynthia Durgin (none) Hi, I am just a passerby looking at the memorial websites and for some reason I picked this one. It's a beautiful site, and you were very honest in telling your son's story. I can relate, as my 19 yr. old son, Tim, suffers from depression/anxiety disorder and ADHD.
Again, my condolences on the loss of your son Paul. He seemed to be a very special boy from what you described. I'm sure God is taking very good care of him until you meet again.
Sincerely, Mrs. C. Durgin Milltown, NJ
The Prayer of St. Francis / Myra Barton (Mom to Edvin Andrei Ang )
May the Prince of Peace fill you with his everlasting peace, comfort and strength now and forever.
Love and Prayers, Myra
Missing my Best Friend / Patsy Vande Ven (Mom) Paulie, I miss you so very much today. I don't know what it is, but I just started crying here at work and feel so sad today. Last night I was so sad because you were not there to help me shovel the snow. Now it snowed again and I will have to shovel again when I get home. Maybe it is just hormones, that time of the month you know. But, I have been thinking about you all day and I have been very sad. I just want to crawl under the blankets and cry. I don't even have a reason to be sad, I just am. You were always there for me when I was down, and you could always make me smile. I just wish you were here now to do that for me. I love you and miss you very much.
I'm sick of hurting... / Jessie French (cousin)
Hey Paul~
Looks like yet another one of my friends will be joining you-my friend Charlie couldn't take the pain of losing his girlfriend of seven years and now it just feels like someone is playing a very cruel joke on me-i'm sick of hurting and i'm sick of losing my friends to something that should never have been...just look out for him for me okay? Look out for my other friends and family too please Pauly...I miss you more and more each day-you would have been able to help me through all of this...I don't feel like talking to anyone and I don't feel like getting close to anyone any more because its just another chance for that person to hurt me...i want to grab you out of my dreams and have you back for good-i miss you pauly... love you forever~ jessie
Thinking of Timmy today / Patsy -. Paul's Mom Vande Ven (Mom) Hey Pauly,
Seems all I am thinking about today is Timmy and how 2 years ago today we were having so much fun at the Gambler game and stuff, when unbeknownst to us Timmy was already gone. When we learned of it the next day I know it was the worst day of your life. It was one of the worst of mine too, until you left us. Then I learned of the pain the Flanigans had gone through.
Today I think of them constantly and how this must be a horrible day for them. I thought about going over there to see them, especially when we were in Green Bay and drove through the area where the accident happened.
It makes me so sad to think about that day, but at the same time I remember how happy we all were and what a great time we had that night. It was one of the last great times we had (except the weekend we went to the Brewer game, then to Madison the weekend before you left us). First, we went out to dinner and had a ball determining who was which character on That 70's Show, and Timmy was Kelso. Then, we went to the Gambler game and I remember you and Mikey in the the Human Sphere race, and how proud you were to take pictures of Dad and I our on the ice for the Chuck-a-Puck. Then we went over to The Bar on Holgrem. You had fun there too, because you loved music so much.
I was just thinking the other day of how Fetch missed the Blue Monster coming every day to get you for school. I think it was 3-4 months before she stopped looking for Timmy's car to come and get you.
I hope you and Timmy are having a great New Year's (though I know time has no meaning for you any longer) and are going to have a big party with all the folks you met from POS and FFOS as well as our family and friends that went before you.
I love you so very much and miss you every day.
Oh yeah, I love the Tickle Me Elmo - it makes me laugh the way Fetch barks and paws at it.
Love always!!!!
Another Xmas without you / Mommy (Mom) My dearest Pauly,
I miss you so very much today. I hope you like your present - the kennel at BAHS. We always had fun when we volunteered at the Humane Society and we got Fetch there, so I thought that would be a nice gift for you.
I love the guitar lesson book out had dad get for me. I started learning to play your guitar today, I hope I can do well by you. Dad was going to give your guitar to Adam and I told him he couldn't because I wanted it (at first just for the pageant) but now I want to learn to play it. It is just another one of your things that I can keep close to me and hold onto every day.
Dad and Mikey liked their DVD's and everyone liked your memorial ornaments.
Sometimes I don't know how I make it through the day without you to at least talk or know you are there for me when I need you. I have felt your presence at times today. I am looking forward to a clear sky so I can look up at the stars with the telescope and try to find yours.
I hope you and Timmy have a big New Year's party planned there. Don't forget to invite Jessie's friend, Josh. He just got there and may be a bit disoriented yet. Please help him to contact his parents and let them know he is okay.
I am so happy you are still giving Jessie dream visits, though I wish you would come visit me too. But, maybe in time when I am not taking so many meds.
I love you more than life itself and miss you every minute of every day.
Pauly~/ Jessie French (cousin/best friend ) Hey Paul~ As you may already know, my friend, Josh, will be joining you shortly, if he hasn't already. Josh was 20 years old. He made the choice to take his own life this past Monday, one week before Christmas. I went to the wake and funeral last night and I went to the burial this morning. He had a smile just like yours. So many people showed up at his funeral last night. It brought back all of the memories from your funeral. I miss you Pauly. My hurt was just starting to heal and then Josh went and did this. Now it just feels like someone is rubbing salt into my deep, open wounds. I was just starting to accept the fact that you really weren't going to walk into my room and start laughing and telling me it was all just a big joke. You guys have no idea how much everyone loved/loves you. We all muss you so much. I'm hurting pretty bad right now, Pauly. I need your help to get me through this. I don't want to talk to anybody about any of this. Nor do I want to be put on meds and told that I have anxiety or depression. I don't need a doctor to tell me that. But I also don't need meds in me-they only make me feel worse. Maybe if I didn't care about people so much, it wouldn't hurt so bad. I don't know if you knew this or not, but ever since I was little, I've always looked up to you. You were and still are my hero. I just want you and grampa and Josh back. I want you guys back for Christmas. I really don't like holidays anymore. They make me hurt too bad. I want my memories of us to continue. Why should they have to stop after only 16 and 1/2 years? I need you to help me to do me a favor, okay Paul? I just need you to help Josh and his family out okay? I love you Paul. Give grampa and Josh hugs from me, k? I'll always love you
The holidays are just not the same / Patsy Vande Ven (Mom) Hey Paul, The holidays just seem so empty without you. We did do a bit of decorating this year, but nothing big like we used to do. I know you approve because you have let your presence be known in a number of ways, from knocking on stuff to ringing a bell (yes Fetch and I heard that this morning). I know you are the one that took me by the lights to buy some new ones to put up around the house. And what do you think about Bob? Nice necklace dad gave me. I told dad you would approve and he said, who do you think told me to do it. We will never forget the fun we had a Xmas. I remember the time you and I went to buy the Toys for Toys for Tots when I worked at Dean Pickle. We had so much fun. I remember when you guys were little and I would get you Legos and we woudl sit on the floor and put them together. We are going to put up your tree by your table. I don't know why, but since we put up the decorations I have been feeling a bit more peaceful. I guess you just wanted me to do something, and it has helped me. I Love You and Miss You EVERYDAY!!!!!
Glad for the chance to know you and through you Paul / Janet Studdard (Friend of Patsy ) Patsy, first let me say how much your visit to Joe's site and your kind words meant to me. I enjoyed getting to know you and through you Paul at the Small Fall Retreat. I'll always treasure that weekend. You have written and shared a lot of things about Paul so that any one who visits this memorial site will come away knowing a little about Paul Your son Mike did an incredible job as well on his site for Paul. The pictures were outstanding and his sharing of his last memories with Paul were so precious. I can't begin to tell you how sorry I am for you and your family for the loss of your precious son. Quite obviously he knew how much he was loved and the closeness of your family and those beautiful memories are priceless. I thought it really cool that you picked the singing candle for Paul's holiday candle.
You are a wonderful person and plese always remember how truly special you are and how much you were loved by Paul. Life just isn't always fair and that stinks. I look forward to seeing you again in the future and possibly meeting Paul's Dad. Tell him he's got to practice Old Dan Tucker though. ;-) And yes you are more than welcome to use any of my ideas you think you might like from Joe's site. In fact I would be honored. You and your family will be in my thoughts as the holiday season is a difficult time for us all while part of our life is missing.
I Wish I was One of The Lucky Ones / Diane/ Mom To Angel Jimmy Brozzetti Were you one of the Lucky Ones?
Did you get to meet the one that lived every day as if it were his last?
Did you see that smiling face, did you hear his infectious laugh?
Did you know the one that had a hug for even the ones that fussed at him?
Did you ever go somewhere and know when the life of the party arrived?
Did you know the one that could make the best of the worst situation?
Did you feel like you were a special person around him?
Did you ever feel so loved?
Were you one of the lucky ones... THAT GOT TO MEET MY SON…
Thinking of you Paul & Your Family / Diane/ Mom To Angel Jimmy Brozzetti I read your story of your loving son Paul and it touched me, as he sounds like My Som Jimmy, playing games with his Grandparents, how mamy young boy even think of their grandparent, and never punish, Everyone use to laught at me , for not ever having to punish Jimmy he was so trust worlty, I never had to even raise my voice, he also always had my debit card. And the both of them loved the computor, that was Jimmys first love. I hope they found each other in Heaven, and are guiding us in our journey. I will keep you in my prayers and thoughs Peace & Love Diane(Jimmys' Mom Forever) http://jimmybrozzetti.memory-of.com/about.aspx
A mother and friend / Barbara Flanigan (friend)
This is the first time I have visited Paul's site, as it has been difficult for me. The memorial web sight is beautiful. We all grieve differently, and I think I have been in shock and perhaps denial after losing Timmy. We loved Paul from the start! He embodied a gentle warmth, humor and intelligence. It was easy to love Paul, and understand why he and my Tim were such close friends, even from the beginning. They complimented each other so beautifully, and brought out the best of what each had to offer. Tim loved life and wanted to experience everything life had to offer, while Paul, thankfully, was more discriminating. Timmy was outgoing, you could see Paul smiling, and laughing when they were together, it was a show in itself. I loved watching Paul help Tim with his homework. Then there were their schemes. I remember the one of them becoming rich by selling mice to the pet stores, yikes. Paul was always wonderful and we miss him so much, but he lives on in our hearts. I am certain he and Timmy are creating good mischief together wherever they are now. However, for us that which left behind in this realm, the bonds of love are never broken, and I hold on to the wonderful memories of Paul when he would come over and bring laughter and joy to our family. Thank you Paul for being such a beautiful friend and spirit.
I'm so Sorry for Paul's Famiy / Debbie Rosa I know the sadness everyone that loved Paul must feel. I, too, lost a child to suicide. Life will never be the same for us. Hopefully, Paul, is a peace. May you find peace. (www.allysuicide.com)
Message for Paul / Barbara Baker (mama of James W. ) Paul while I am just another cyber space mom who lost a son to suicide, I feel at this time your mom needs a little extra attention and loving signs from you. She is really having a "down time" and giving all the love she has for you, missing you, and needing you, honey would you please make an effort to assure her you are with her loving and caring about her, and try to help make it through this rough time. Please do all you can to relieve this extra stress upon her shoulders that is filled with the special love a mother has for her missing child. It will be a very welcomed loving sign your mom will except with open arms, and hugs that only you know. She will be looking for this from you as soon as you can. Thank you son and take care of yourself and your family, especially mom right now. Barbara J. mama of James W. (POS GROUP)
I understand / Connie (passerby) To Pauls family and friends - I came upon this website as my nephew also has a website dedicated to himself. My nephew took his own life at the age of 19 on June 21, 2003. I understand the pain and the grief that everyone is feeling. Suicide is so final - no time for goodbyes, and alot of whys and what if's. My sister (his mom) has not recovered from his death as none of us have.
My heart and prayers are with you, and an understanding of your pain. You have such a beautiful son and it sounds like he was so intelligent. I know our son's are together now and they are looking down on us. God Bless!
I miss you baby / Patsy Vande Ven (Mom)
I can't believe it has been a year already my sweet boy. A year ago today we had your memorial service. Today was a tough day for me, but dad let me sleep late - he called and woke me up at 9:00 - and that helped. Then I had to go to work for 11:00, and I tried to keep myself busy there.
I hope you got all the beautiful balloons we sent to you. Jessie spent the weekend with us, and that really made things easier. I never realized how much you and Jessie are alike, your mannerisms, the way you talk, and so many little things you two share.
I miss you so very much, Paul. I can't even begin to tell you how much. I thought things would get easier, but I have my times where all I want to do is cry. I am trying to keep myself as busy as possible so that I can continue to go on. If I just sit and think about you I will not last long, because I will want to be with you too much.
Thanks for the nice storms today. I like the thunder and lightning. It reminds me of the last time you and I sat out on the deck when the sirens went off in Suamico. We just sat there and looked at each other, then looked at the sky and said "looks clear to me, no sense going inside". Just thinking of that day makes me smile.
I still feel so guilty that I was not here when you needed me and that I left you alone that day when I found you. I hope you will find a way to forgive me, I should not have left you. I'm so sorry.
I love you every day and think of you always.
Forever in my Heart!!! Close
I miss my Pauly.... / Jessie French (cousin)Read >>
I miss my Pauly.... / Jessie French (cousin)
Hey Pauly, I can't believe that tomorrow is going to be a year already. I miss you sooo much. I'm going to go down to Madison, by Mikey, with your mom and dad tonight so we can release balloons in your memory.....I just wish it wasn't for this reason...It has been an extremely hard year and I still think that I'm just having a really horrible dream and I sometimes think that you're just going to walk through the door and that I'm going to be able to run up to you and give you a giant hug and kiss and tell you how much I love you. Give grandpa hugs and kisses from me, k? I talk to Jacob about you and grandpa all the time...he reminds me of you and the way you made people laugh all the time...he's like that too. I love you and miss you sooooo much Paul... Love you forever and ever, Jessie Close
I've visited your site for years, so when I learned of your brother's death it came as a shock because in addition to your easy-to-read articles so full of good advice, I feel I almost know you, thanks to the personal and family background you include.
I was pleasantly surprised when I discovered your posts yesterday on TechSurvivors, where I registered only this month. It is there that I saw the link to the condolences page.
I apologize for this being so late, but I wish to extend my sympathies to you, your family and Paul's friends. I wish there was some way to lighten the load, but, as I've learned, only time can do that. My thoughts will continue to be with you and yours.
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